Worldless Wednesday

Changing, better to turn and walk away

So I was working part time until I was able to find a job in my field.  I wanted to do something that I went to school for, something I loved, something I could look forward to doing every single day.  I found a job, I thought it was a great decision, but I was wrong.

I am not in love and I don't look forward to getting up in the morning.  It wasn't everything that I was hoping for.  I questioned my reasonings for taking the job.  Did I take it because it was one of the only places to even respond to my application?  Did I take it because I barely got an interview in the past year?  Did I do it because I thought it would get me closer to my dream?  Was it because it was in my field?

In the end, I am not happy.  God bless my husband who has to deal with my sadness.  He knows that I haven't been happy with a job in a long time.  I want to help provide for my family, have an adult conversation and feel that the six years of education (that I am still paying for) were worth it.  I know that I am not the type of person that can stay home full-time, I need that moment where I can be just me, not just mommy.

So here I stand, working a job I am not crazy about, but I was able to create a part-time schedule.  So I have returned to active job hunting during my free time in hopes that by the end of the summer, I can be moving in the direction of a better job. 

I want to feel good about my job and know that I am not only helping my family, but also making myself a better person.

If anyone knows of a job opening, I am all ears.