Walk like a (little) man

It's okay baby boy, I will catch you if you fall.  I know that you can do this.  You are such a big boy. Momma is so proud of you. I can't believe my little Cookie is ready to walk.  What happened to my little baby boy?

Lucas is there, he is on the verge of walking.  Yesterday, he took a few steps all by himself.  He was so proud of himself, that as he giggled at his accomplishment, I had scooped him up into my arms to kiss his little face.  His little giggle is infectious and I can't help but giggle with him.  He is always so proud of himself when he learns a new "trick".  But as a momma, it makes me embarrassed to admit that I don't remember every moment.  With Anna, I remember everything, every time she did something new, I remember her first word, her first step, the first time she broke into a run, the first time she said "I love you", the first time she said "Momma" and most importantly, I can see her smile when I close my eyes. 

But with Lucas it is different, I can't believe I am writing this down for the whole world to see, but I can't remember all of that.  I know that everyone says that the second baby gets less than the first one, but I was determined to not let Lucas feel left out or become an adult and ask where his pictures are or me to not answer a question about his childhood.  I love my children the same, but time really does change things, with Anna, I was trying to commit everything to memory, but with Lucas I live in the moment.  I can rejoice in everything he does, but I have to find a better way to make it into a memory.  I never want him to feel less important.  Maybe it is all in my head, I do have a wild imagination, but I hope that he knows I love him just as much as his big sister.

Know this Cookie, Momma loves you more than life and that first step was sweet and precious and we giggled about each of those wobbly steps.  I can't wait to run with you in the backyard this summer and giggle about how sweet life really is because with you in my life baby boy, life really is a little sweeter.